i loved you first

a letter to my daughter

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when your little brother takes his nap, do you want to spend some time with me? just us.

i’m thinking we could draw—you with your oil pastels, me with mine. and before that, we could make smoothies with bananas, strawberries, and blueberries. it’s nice and warm out today. wouldn’t you like that? we can sip on them while we draw and pause to admire each other’s work.

and when our pages are filled and our cups nearly empty, we can go out into the yard—bare feet in the grass, faces tilted toward the sun. maybe we’ll play tag or mommy, get me—the game that always ends in breathless giggles.

and then, just for you, we’ll play pretend. i’ll be the big sister, the teenage one you love so much. i’ll toss my imaginary car keys in the air and say, c’mon, i’ll drive you to your swim lessons while mom’s at work. i know how much you love that.

afterwards, we’ll grab our books, spread a blanket under the tree, and read. we’ll bring out our journals just in case the words come pouring out.

so, what do you think? do you want to spend some time with me when your brother takes his nap? after all, i loved you first.

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a still life

not in love, but i hope to keep getting better from here! learning that it’s okay to be bad at things!

thank you so much for being here!!

xx rojeen